Finally i'm blogging again. Haha.. changed my lay out. been feeling slightly down recently . Maybe it's true things will never be the same again. I just need my motivation to study in school. i can't study . can't focus. i'm feeling that life is so meaningless again. everyday do the same things. i need some kind of thrills , excitement , love whatsoever in my life. I can't stand this boring fucked up life any more. ok off to school. ciao

What does the term " I love you " mean ? It actually means that if you love a person 100% , you're giving the person your heart to break but trusting her/him not to break it . Just woke up not long ago and still feeling very tired . She's going shopping for her bags and stuff and I'm going to stay at home lonely again. :( . Ah i think i'm going to anime and lie on my bed. I'll update if something interesting comes along. Ciaoz

Do you have the time to listen to me whine ? No ? Click the X at the top right hand corner and fuck off .

Ok. Vday went half as I planned. She came over met her at my house exchanged presents and she seemed quite happy with what she got . I put everything i had into this one last vday but it still failed. So like I'm going to say , I'm giving up. I'm going to fuck care everything. and yes. So what if i don't value my life ? No one cares . If I don't care for myself , who the fuck in the world are you to care for me ? I hate myself for being me . I hate myself for being who I am . If only I was this . If only I was that . If only i was blah blah blah. Things wouldn't turn out this way. So you didn't expect me to take it so harshly ? Go find your friends with 18 months of feelings involved and asked them what would they do if their significant other lost their feelings .
ok fine. everyone will ask me to move on and all that bullshit. Now hear this , I don't need you to tell me what to do with MY own fucking life. Welcome to MY life . I'll be moving on to another world. ahahaha. Move on ? Fuck you. and when I say fuck you , I mean it . So now Fuck off.

Blogging again.. Been a very boring day. Ok let's not say boring. it turns off the mood. Let's just say it's been UNEVENTFUL. lol. Woke up like 2+ cause dad says I can't sleep till too late cause if not i can't sleep today and i won't go school on monday -.- ok fine w/e . So i woke up. did the usual stuff den started to do the vday present. Tomorrow is already like vday.. Hopefully it will go alright :s . So worried it won't and something crops up. lol.. Definately gotta go school tomorrow =( . Mom was nagging and to make her stop i went like " OK LA! I'll go school tomorrow! " zzzz . Now i no choice gotta go . Saddening .. Okieee.. That's all for today. Will update on how vday went . =/ . Spending it with a love one but not being together is so erm.. Wierd ? haha *shrugs* . Looking forward to tomorrow. Everything BUT school.

Yo... haha. Didn't blog last night . Was too busy watching anime. :/ . Getting addicted to it already. Anyway today was a long day. Went to town to buy my vday presents and all. Such a boringggggggggggggg day. lol.Let's hope it's gonna come back soon . I'm too tired and love sick and well.. In reality , I am sick! You know , it sucks being sick :( . Off to watch one piece. Tata.

How's this for a CNY . Didn't go visiting today. Lol.. Woke up and realised that i wasn't going visiting and made some noise saying I was bored. Lol.. So my family decided to go out. Wanted to watch movie but no tix so went to the river hong bao thing walk walk lor. Quite dumb . Only interesting thing was this china guy making figurines of your actual self. Looks quite real. Lol.. Den went to suntec to eat den got stuck in the carpark for like 30 - 40 minutes cuz of a jam! Can u imagine ?! A Jam in the carpark. How bad can it just go. lol. Ok.. going ta restart comp now. gonna receive some anime. =D . ciaoZ

Such a quiet new year . This year new year ang bao so little . zzz . Less then $200 . =/ . Early morning woke up den go bathe den go grand ma house . Den go some auntie house den go my mom's side grand ma house and rot . So boring =\ . Never gamble at all. haha. wanna gamble also no one to gamble with. lol. then i started to think what i want from my life. couldn't get any answers . Cause i'm just a Liddat lor to her . You know it sucks to fall sick on a new year. But what can i do. I also can't do shit. Ah.. Dunno what to blog alr. Do tag on my board if you dropped by . TY

Ok happy lunar new year to you guys.. Went to both my grand parent place for lunch and dinner today. Not a bad meal. haha.. have you had the feeling of being on the edge and no one's there to save you ? Haha.. I dun know. I'm at the edge and no one is around. Can't wait for the red packets tomorrow. Hur... Ah. Dun have da mood ta blog. Cya ard sometime soon.

Is it really my fault that I'm paranoid ? Life's a bitch then you die

It's a new layout so let's see...A new change in life again ? Hmm.. Whatever. =/ . Ok so yes. There's school tomorrow and it's going to be so boring . =( . When will you come homeeeeeeeee When will you be mineeeeeeee.

Bon Jovi - Always

This Romeo is bleeding
But you can't see his blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up.
It's been raining since you left me
Now I'm drowning in the flood
You see I've always been a fighter
But without you I give up.
Now I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
Well I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby that's just me.
And I will love you baby always
And I'll be there forever and a day always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and the words don't rhyme
And I know when I die you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you always.
Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh
Some that made us cry
One that made you have to say good bye.
What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I've made mistakes I'm just a man.
When he holds you close
When he pulls you near
When he says the words
You've been needing to hear
I'll wish I was him, that his words were mine
To say to you till the end of time.
That I will love you baby always
And I'll be there forever and a day always
If you told me to cry for you I could
If you told me to die for you I would
Take a look at my face
There's no price I won't pay
To say these words to you.
Well there ain't no luck in these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams and our old lives
We'll find a place where the sun still shines.
And I will love you baby always
And I'll be there forever and a day always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and the words don't rhyme
And I know when I die you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you always.

Today sucked kinda bad again. You left my life in disarray. Met her earlier went to cut hair , shopped for my new year clothes . She seemed so fine . So happy. She's taking it so simply. Paranoidness . Is there any cure for this stupid sickness i'm suffering from. It's seriously making me feel worst . I don't know. Sitting by the Singapore river is so much better.

Everything has just flown away over night. Everything is changing. There's this girl whom I love so much but is happier this way. What can I do. I just can't let go of this. I don't want to. I hate this shit.

Life's a bitch then you die. So fuck it all.

I don't need your sympathy nor pity. I might wallow in self pity but I still don't need your pity .