Okay..This is the updated post that I promised when I was home. Okay. So yesterday I didn't go to school because I couldn't wake up. I finally woke up at 2 by urgent phone calls for me to go down to hospital to see my grandma. Don't exactly know what happened but she blacked out and after xrays , she has a 144cc blood clot in her head now. It's fucking huge , I swear.

Went down to Tan Tock Seng Hospital with my brother.Reached and found the rest of them waiting outside and realised that we couldn't go in together. Only 1 at a time. What kind of fucked up ruling is that ? Imagine YOUR loved one was lying there and you couldn't go in to see her/him. Then those fucking guards were like "you can't go by here. Go the other side" WTF LA. I'm just going in to see my grand ma. Do I look like a fucking terrorist to you ?! What's wrong with u la bitch.And what's the worst part ? They took more then 3 fucking hours to move her to the ICU can ?

Saw all the aunties and uncles whom I mostly haven't seen since chinese new year. So ya.. And at night they decided they were going to remove the life support from her today after my uncle comes back from Hong Kong. Went down today.. She wasn't on the life support anymore when I went down. Her heart beat dropped and raised like by alot. From 44 - 70 that kind of thing :(

It's really very painful to see her like that. Talked to can't remember who but I just found out toady that even if she went for the op or not , she will never regain consciousness. Which means , she's literally lying there waiting to die. According to doctors , she's not going through any pain.But how the fuck would they know. Have they been in that fucking state before ? I doubt so . And it's such a painful sight to see her in this condition. Please. If there's this thing called God , please do something about it. I really can't bear to see her like that any longer.