I had a dream. A very scary dream. It must have been over dramatic or something. What can I say ? I was under the influence of alcohol. I've been talking shit to my friends that I couldn't remember last night. But of all ways to wake up , I've to wake up crying to a dream. Everything in it felt so real. My world in the dream crumbled. And with the way my present life is in , it isn't helping at all. Not one bit.
Yesterday was supposed to meet Rei at 12+ after his school but he decided to be a part time friend and dua me till 4+. So I was literally rotting at home and playing on my keys. When I was leaving my house , I received an sms saying Hong Zheng's grand father has passed away and he might be able to go down. So I called Rei , picked him and Gabriel up and cabbed down to Sembawang. Saw HZ and he's no more the skinny bitch we used to know. He still can proudly tell me it's 5 months only. Still the same old cheeky self. According to him , if he studies hard inside , he can most probably come out by August 2006 . Which is like 18 months away. That's still long.
He could only spend an hour there. After he left , we left as well. Down to Hougang to eat with Rei and Gab. After that heard loads of things I would be much happier without hearing. So yes. I started drinking again. Drank then called up Iain and DC. Met up with them at Serangoon. Drink again. All seh again. I mean , what's new . It's not like I know my limits when I'm emo or something. I'll just put alcohol into my mouth drinknig it like it's water or something.
Came home , played on my keyboards and realised that I'm much more creative when I'm high. Dota-ed for abit and off to sleep. Woke up this morning to a dream that felt so real and realised that I've been crying in my dreams. I don't know. It just feels wrong. I think I should be trying to go back to sleep. I don't know. I'm just feeling pretty fucked up and once again , I don't see my point in living again. Not like I've been able to see my point of living for quite awhile. But this time is seriously just don't feel like living anymore. Ah... Back to bed I think. So long and good night.
Yesterday was supposed to meet Rei at 12+ after his school but he decided to be a part time friend and dua me till 4+. So I was literally rotting at home and playing on my keys. When I was leaving my house , I received an sms saying Hong Zheng's grand father has passed away and he might be able to go down. So I called Rei , picked him and Gabriel up and cabbed down to Sembawang. Saw HZ and he's no more the skinny bitch we used to know. He still can proudly tell me it's 5 months only. Still the same old cheeky self. According to him , if he studies hard inside , he can most probably come out by August 2006 . Which is like 18 months away. That's still long.
He could only spend an hour there. After he left , we left as well. Down to Hougang to eat with Rei and Gab. After that heard loads of things I would be much happier without hearing. So yes. I started drinking again. Drank then called up Iain and DC. Met up with them at Serangoon. Drink again. All seh again. I mean , what's new . It's not like I know my limits when I'm emo or something. I'll just put alcohol into my mouth drinknig it like it's water or something.
Came home , played on my keyboards and realised that I'm much more creative when I'm high. Dota-ed for abit and off to sleep. Woke up this morning to a dream that felt so real and realised that I've been crying in my dreams. I don't know. It just feels wrong. I think I should be trying to go back to sleep. I don't know. I'm just feeling pretty fucked up and once again , I don't see my point in living again. Not like I've been able to see my point of living for quite awhile. But this time is seriously just don't feel like living anymore. Ah... Back to bed I think. So long and good night.
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