Today = hardcore keyboard day. Until like 5+ then mum reminded me I had class. WTF . I fucking forgot about my class! I didn't go last week also la. That is so what the fuck man. After class , came home. Lots of thoughts in my mind. Suicidal thoughts ? Might be. I don't care. Really.

This life has been plagued with too much trouble to be even called a life. Imagine you bringing so much pain into your family. Would you still consider yourself part of them ? If you do , where is your feeling called GUILT ?! I guess , if I really did perish or whatsoever without leaving a dumb suicide note , no one would realise. Maybe only my parents. And that's just because I ain't home. Sighs.. Things been changing rapidly since the very first day. Yes. I know , everyday in my head it's either her , suicide or keyboard. I don't know much do I ? What do I know ? What am I good for ? The answers ? Nothing. But well , so many things are unpredictable and people do change right ? So yeah. I guess , I've been changing. Don't ask why. I don't know either. But I just can't tell myself she's changed right ?

Hmm... Let's see... The day I die , will be the day my handphone remains off. So no one can get through , and they'll just stop calling thinking that my handphone probably has no battery! Hmm.. Or perhaps , I could leave my handphone at home when I go out. So when my parents come home and call my hp , they will realise that it's at home and no point calling!

The reason why I planned all this , is just so after everything is planned , I can die without having my parents to worry for one night at least... Ok. Just forget me. I'm just losing sanity. Any better suggestions ? Thoxay@Gmail.com is open for suggestions. So long and good night ? Ahaha. Anything call/sms. Bye.