Everyone is showing me attitude once agian. All because of me taking 15. Should I give a fuck ? I don't know. My life is already so pointless. There is no point in doing anything right now. I don't know myself. I'm getting depressed over I don't know what either.

I'm in a very depressing mood almost every other day. It wasn't so bad. Could it be me not taking my medication ? I don't even see the point in why I should be taking my so called medication. It's like what the fuck. It's supposed to help people who is see-ing things , hearing things , unable to control temper and all that bullshit. Like WHAT THE FUCK. Which of those do I have ? I think , this stupid medication is causing my mood swings.

Hur... I don't really care about anything anymore. Like my mother told me , Why do u want to care for others when you don't even care about yourself. After much thinking , I think it's quite true. I don't even care about my own well being , why should I care for others. Maybe , I just chose this path myself and now I'm all alone. Time heals all wounds ? My ass. By the time , time decides to heal a wound of yours , you'll probably just fall down and get another wound.

Sometimes , I just wish I was a lil boy all over again. You know ? Falling down and hurting your physical body is so much easier to take care of then an internal wound. It's hurting bad. Do you know how I feel ? No. Aparently not. I made a mistake taking 15 then going down to Third Place the other night. I couldn't even remember I said hi to so many people nor could I remember seeing people there. I didn't even know what happened. Ok. Nvm. Fuck me , Fuck my life and Fuck everything else. Hahahahahahahahaha

Much love ,
Thoxay