Getting high , waking up feeling suicidal to a bed filled with blood is scary. How do I know ? Cause it just happened a few days ago and I did not have the time to update. What actually happened ? I can't remember. I was a goner. Doing things and I couldn't remember.

How did I get so suicidal again ? I don't know either. All I know is I desprately wanted to die that very night. Sighs. Until today , I'm still feeling very fucked. But I know , I won't do anything stupid when I'm not high. But getting high has became a habit and I think I'm addicted to it already. What should I do now ?

You promised me , you'll wait for me. You asked me to choose. Either 15 or you. Promise you I won't touch it and you'll be with me. But no. I'm not promising you that because I don't want to break any promises. But you know , I think I'm falling in love with you. :/ . I'm sorry.