Been a long while since I updated. Things are going on a rough edge right now but it'll soon get better I suppose.No , I'm hoping. Because I swear I wasn't on drugs and haven't been on drugs. I've fucking stopped taking them like weeks ago. Why won't anyone believe me ? I haven't broken that promiise that I have stopped taking drugs from the time I made it. But why won't anyone believe me.

I was fucking drunk and my friend took my phone. Please believe me. I really am on the verge of breaking down. Sinking into depression day by day. I don't give a fucking damn if you're a drinker and know that your phone is ringing when you're drunk. Prove it to me then. Have more then a litre of Martell in you. Then I'll call you. Plus the fact that you have friends who are worried that you'll lost your phone and keep it for you and not answer the phone. It isn't their fault. Because I would be afraid to call someone and tell them you're drunk on behalf of my friend. I don't blame anyone but YOU for not understanding me.

YOU had a choice to come down or not. I fucking invited you that night. Don't say I didn't. Because I did. I swear this is really causing much more hurt then I have expected. The words you said are all like knives stabbing through me. Let's hope it gets settled soon enough. I love you. But as much as I love you , I hate your guts for not trusting me. You took for granted all the times I never let you down.

Sighs :/ . Everything is screwing up in my life right now and I'm hoping it'll get better each day. Don't take to heart what has happened right now my little one. He has just gone to a better place to dwell. A place filled with joy and no suffering to endure. When will I be going , I don't know :( . But for now , my heart is with you and has always been with you. ilu. :)