Dying to get lost. Dying to disappear from the surface of this earth is all I know I'm feeling. It need not matter that things are getting worst for me. The feelings grew. But she will never be mine. Sounds so unlike me.. But it's just not right. and she would never like me. Blah!

Friday and Saturday was out again at Raiders. Working and playing around. Shouldn't it be time to study ? Oh sure yes. I'm going to get down to work after this. The rest of them are all behind playing games. Should I try asking them to study ? Or just not give a fuck ? It gets really hard asking someone to do something they dislike .

Oh well , I think , I'm loving you. But who gives a flying fuck. Definately not you. Blah blah blah. Ok. That's all for now. Off to do some maths..