5.31.2006

Specially for you , FUCKER. Haha

[i released myself at 11:40:00 PM]

Disappointment. Disappointed in myself. Sighs

[i released myself at 8:12:00 PM]

5.30.2006

What would have happened if I died ? Would it mean , I would never have another chance to tell you how much I love you ?

[i released myself at 10:38:00 PM]

An unanswered phone call and my unreplied sms-es. Pure anxiety. Tell me everything is fine.

[i released myself at 12:57:00 AM]

5.29.2006

It's been a fucked up day. Sigh. Depressing day. What more is there to come.

I'll be waiting. Really.

[i released myself at 9:48:00 PM]

It's fucked up days like these that leaves me wondering. Who do I find if I need a hug. Thank god I have a dog at home.

[i released myself at 7:48:00 PM]

5.28.2006

An empty stomach and the freezing temperature makes one feel so weak. Thinking about what I saw isn't helping. Yuan says this but I think that. What should I do.

tell me. what I should do. I want to hear it.

From you and only you.

[i released myself at 1:17:00 PM]

Yuan hit the bulls eye. Afraid of everything. Ruining things. Where is this heading to ? Which direction ?

false hopes ?

[i released myself at 12:34:00 PM]

But behind every smile is a heart filled with misery and sadness. It's all just a facade. A mask donned so that none will ever see the inner-self.

[i released myself at 12:16:00 PM]

The sweetest things were said by him. Not me

[i released myself at 2:21:00 AM]

5.27.2006

Curiosity killed the cat ? I think curiosity killed me. Hah. Saw something which I shouldn't have seen yesterday. And I fully understand everything right now. It was sweet that it happened. A sweet dream. That I wish I would have never woken up from. But I've already awoken and life has to go on.

[i released myself at 7:15:00 PM]

5.25.2006

[i released myself at 10:43:00 PM]

Firstly , Sorry to those who has been affected by me diverting all my phone calls. I just didn't feel like talking. But nevertheless , I replied your messages. Off to the doctor to get mc. Too sick for school. No mood for work. No point in life.

if it's over , it's over.

stop clinging.

take your other suitors and leave me.

[i released myself at 9:30:00 PM]

5.24.2006

Can't believe that I'm the fool again. Always been the fool.

[i released myself at 8:59:00 PM]

It's killing me. What they call Karma , is back to kill me. K-A-R-M-A.

[i released myself at 8:21:00 PM]

5.21.2006

You make me feel as if I never had you. Your heart was never with me to begin with. I don't know why I'm feeling this way. But that's how I really am feeling. I'm missing you. I really am. I sound like I'm so going to cause an emotional ruckus to my own heart. But does that really matter ?

Would it make a difference if you were here ? Would there be ANY difference to begin with ? I don't know myself.

I love you. I really do.

[i released myself at 2:39:00 PM]

5.18.2006

Electronic Prototyping test was fine. I guess I pretty much didn't screw up. Didn't receive fucked up comments from that particular teacher. School pretty much sucks. Really. I don't know whats my point in going to school. Everyday I just sit there , wondering what the lecturers / tutors are doing.

Is this the way I'm going to live for the rest of my poly life ? If this carries on , I'm afraid I'll be giving up soon. Having extreme mood swings again. Perhaps it's due to the lack of sleep or perhaps it's due to the fact that I'm actually feeling my heart again. Due to the fact that I'm having feelings again. Rather than the heart of the past.

Everything's going to be alright. One day . One way or another.
:)

[i released myself at 8:43:00 PM]

5.15.2006

I gave you your chance and you passed it. There's no point regretting and there will never be another point for you to ponder.

[i released myself at 8:12:00 PM]

5.14.2006

It's been a fucked up week. Thanks for fucking it up even more. Really.

[i released myself at 12:40:00 PM]