8.31.2006
I remember , I was told once by someone I loved. Love is like sand in your hands. The harder you hold it , the more it will force it's way out. Try holding it lightly. It'll stay there.
How true it is. Maybe here's where I shall just learn to let loose and not care what you're doing.
[i released myself at 11:18:00 PM]
Jealousy is an extremely trivial thing to be upset over. But jealousy is the emotion that upsets me the most. Simple little things can make me jealous. And i guess its because of this that im seen as unreasonable at times? So i decided i shall just keep my mouth shut, and not tell anyone at all. I would just have a blacker than usual face. Thats all. I may appear nonchalant at times but please bear in mind that im actually bothered by it. It means i care, and maybe, a tad too much.
[i released myself at 11:16:00 PM]
Though I know with my current mood now , I shouldn't be posting this kind of happy posts , I guess it's the only other time where I'm free to. Sleep => Play =>Work => Sleep. 1 complete cycle.
Hectic studying for the past week. Trying to cram whatever others have taken almost 6 months to learn in a few days / a week. Studying till almost 1am everyday , not only kills brain cells. But also makes you fat and poor. Why , you ask. It makes you poor by making you go to 7-11 everytime before you start studying , get a drink (yoghurt) , pocky (strawberry) and other snacks. That's just the starting. We haven't gone to the part where we all start to get stressed out and buy ice-cream.
*Imagine sitting at a table , eating and killing your braincells. Healthy ? NO.*
Though it isn't a totally healthy activity , I still had fun.
*Will continue another time. Just realised something*
[i released myself at 1:48:00 AM]
8.30.2006
I hate to hear that chee bye name.
[i released myself at 10:47:00 PM]
8.22.2006
It's just another night where I'm feeling so fucked up over the incidents that have happened this whole day.
A night that is seeming so long. Another one of those emo periods where I'm feeling lousy over myself. Something that I presumebly can't explain.
And how I wish so much . You could be here in this cold , lonely night. I miss you baby.
[i released myself at 12:16:00 AM]
8.19.2006
Maybe I shouldn't have fell sick. Maybe I should have just died. Some kind of sick joke God is playing. Oh. But I never believed in God. I believed in myself. Well , perhaps it's my own joke. I caused everything to fuck up on me.
How sweet of me.
[i released myself at 3:52:00 PM]
I feel the inevitable coming . Approaching me ever so quietly and at such a rapid pace. I don't seem to be the one who's able to make you smile after a long tiring day now.I used to be the one but now everything is different. And infact , the long and tiring day would be me. Haven't I already shown enough appreciation ?
The words you said , all pierced through that glass heart causing it to shatter. Would you even care ? Maybe you would. You've got your revenged afterall.
And now ? You don't feel like talking to me. With a post FULL of SACARSM and HURTING words , you're making me think , where our relationship is heading to.
[i released myself at 3:28:00 PM]
8.09.2006
I'm sorry I kept doubting you. Now that the everything is out , I love you so much more.
[i released myself at 12:40:00 AM]
8.06.2006
And to my friends who are reading this , I just want you guys to know , whatever you've heard , I do NOT make friends with a motive behind. Choose to believe me or not.
[i released myself at 12:25:00 AM]
8.04.2006
And then I start feeling so cheated. While I was running about Singapore getting stuffs for you , you were there. Without intention of telling me anything.
can't believe that I'm the fool again.
how many times must things coincide before you decide
to tell me everything ?
[i released myself at 9:41:00 PM]
And was I so wrong to hold you to your words ? So unreasonable of me ? I'm sorry. I can't help but feel this way. It'll be over soon.
[i released myself at 9:38:00 PM]
The feeling of the heart breaking , is just unbearable. Stab me
it seems that there's more then meets the eye.
If it's a yes , hide it well.
[i released myself at 9:04:00 PM]
8.02.2006
Cause I don't know if it's because I ain't smoking that I'm feeling this way. But it just sucks.
[i released myself at 11:35:00 PM]
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