I have this sudden inevitable urge to blog although I haven't done so in the past week or so. It came to me last night when I couldn't get to bed. All the thoughts of sadness , worries and what not. It was only negative thoughts , negative thinking. EVERYTHING was negative. I really don't know what to do or say.

I really really do love you in my heart. But I know my actions seldom say so. But I swear it's you I love. It's only you. All my worries , fear and sadness. Will anyone kiss them away ? Will anyone just hold me close and tell me everything's gonna be alright ?

Cause I'm different. I need alot more tender loving care then other guys. Any other guys you'll meet . I'm quite certain of this. And what makes me even more different ? I'm handicapped. I can't walk properly and I neither can I bend my legs.

When people make fun of me , I just smile and laugh heartily . But do they know the hurt that's tearing me inside out ? I guess no one knows how it feels. Not till they've been through what I have.

I love you baby. I really do. Don't ask me why this post is so incoherent. It's just ... I don't know. I've so many things that I want to say out , but I don't know how to. I'm literally just typing everything that comes to my mind. So yeah....

Till then ,
Wyn

I haven't blogged for 1 month. Now , tell me. If you're me , with 2 broken legs and 1 broken hand after an accident. Walking with a limp and knee can't bend. This girl has promised to stay with me , and I'm giving my relationship more than my all.

But when reality sets in , why would someone stay with you knowing all your physical disablities ? Would this be another case of my low self-esteem ? I really don't know , and I wish to have some enlightenment . Now , will some stranger or anyone else tell me why ? And no. I do NOT want your answer baby. Cause I know what it's gonna be.

I wanna know facts. Because , I already am betting more then I have. And if I fall , it's gonna be hard. Oh. But I can't fall. Cause if I do , I'll have to amputate my legs. LAWL.

I haven't blogged for 1 month. Now , tell me. If you're me , with 2 broken legs and 1 broken hand after an accident. Walking with a limp and knee can't bend. This girl has promised to stay with me , and I'm giving my relationship more than my all.

But when reality sets in , why would someone stay with you knowing all your physical disablities ? Would this be another case of my low self-esteem ? I really don't know , and I wish to have some enlightenment . Now , will some stranger or anyone else tell me why ? And no. I do NOT want your answer baby. Cause I know what it's gonna be.

I wanna know facts. Because , I already am betting more then I have. And if I fall , it's gonna be hard. Oh. But I can't fall. Cause if I do , I'll have to amputate my legs. LAWL.