I have this sudden inevitable urge to blog although I haven't done so in the past week or so. It came to me last night when I couldn't get to bed. All the thoughts of sadness , worries and what not. It was only negative thoughts , negative thinking. EVERYTHING was negative. I really don't know what to do or say.

I really really do love you in my heart. But I know my actions seldom say so. But I swear it's you I love. It's only you. All my worries , fear and sadness. Will anyone kiss them away ? Will anyone just hold me close and tell me everything's gonna be alright ?

Cause I'm different. I need alot more tender loving care then other guys. Any other guys you'll meet . I'm quite certain of this. And what makes me even more different ? I'm handicapped. I can't walk properly and I neither can I bend my legs.

When people make fun of me , I just smile and laugh heartily . But do they know the hurt that's tearing me inside out ? I guess no one knows how it feels. Not till they've been through what I have.

I love you baby. I really do. Don't ask me why this post is so incoherent. It's just ... I don't know. I've so many things that I want to say out , but I don't know how to. I'm literally just typing everything that comes to my mind. So yeah....

Till then ,
Wyn