Life is getting from bad to worst. Haha.. You thought that everyday I can walk , I should be happy ? Let me tell you , no. Things aren't as simple as they seem. I don't understand what's these assholes point. Screaming at me , throwing money at me like I don't have any dignity. Look.. If you wanna act cool , I seriously doubt it's of any cool to ABUSE someone with 2 broken legs .
I can't fight you now. But whether you're gonna read this or not , I don't care. But when the limit is up , I won't even bother fighting you , or warning you. I'm gonna take a knife , and stab it through you. Everyone has their own limits and it seems like you're pushing your luck furthur than it's able to take you.
I don't know whether you believe in karma. But even if I don't , I'm praying that karma is going to hit you hard. Breaking 2 of your legs might seem like too easy a task for you. I'm hoping somewhere along the lines where BOTH your legs gets amputated and there I will be STANDING BY YOU (pun intended) .
In case that retarded brain of yours don't get the joke , when both your legs are amputated , you can never stand again. And there i'll be , STANDING next to you. Even if all this doesn't happen to you , I'll pray with all my heart that it happens to a loved one of yours. So you can only see them suffer. And you can never feel the pain they go through. When they become depressed and shit like me , wanting so much to die , you'll be so willing to take their pain and stuff , but then a reality check will tell you , YOU CAN'T.
It's almost 3am , and I wish someone was here. Regretting what I said / done just now , doesn't seem to help. But it isn't getting off my mind. Wondering why I said those things without actually thinking. Was it because I was actually more focused on playing billiard than thinking of what I should say ? I really don't know..
All I know is that I hope tomorrow will be better. When you wake up , you'll be sick no more , forgiven me and we'll have a happy day tomorrow. I guess , that's all I can hope and pray for at this point in time.
I'm sorry for everything I've done and said. But I still love you baby. You're my 1 and only one. I really do.