Seeing your best friend's action tonight, how am I supposed to not be afraid when you go clubbing with your cousins.

How am I supposed to know which guy are you gonna bua or which guy is gonna bua you. Sighs.. Then when I start to make noise about you going, you start to say that I don't trust you and stuff.

But under the influence of alcohol, anything is possible. So, what should I do ? It's exactly the same logic like how whenever I wanna go club with our friends but you cannot go, you will say, yes. you allow. Just that you cannot have a peaceful night of sleep.

This is even worst. Your cousins and their friends, I know none of them. And the saying will be, what happens in the club, stays in the club. I really am at a lost of what to do/say. Let's hope your cousin won't jio you to club in the near future. BLAH

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Life is getting from bad to worst. Haha.. You thought that everyday I can walk , I should be happy ? Let me tell you , no. Things aren't as simple as they seem. I don't understand what's these assholes point. Screaming at me , throwing money at me like I don't have any dignity. Look.. If you wanna act cool , I seriously doubt it's of any cool to ABUSE someone with 2 broken legs .

I can't fight you now. But whether you're gonna read this or not , I don't care. But when the limit is up , I won't even bother fighting you , or warning you. I'm gonna take a knife , and stab it through you. Everyone has their own limits and it seems like you're pushing your luck furthur than it's able to take you.

I don't know whether you believe in karma. But even if I don't , I'm praying that karma is going to hit you hard. Breaking 2 of your legs might seem like too easy a task for you. I'm hoping somewhere along the lines where BOTH your legs gets amputated and there I will be STANDING BY YOU (pun intended) .

In case that retarded brain of yours don't get the joke , when both your legs are amputated , you can never stand again. And there i'll be , STANDING next to you. Even if all this doesn't happen to you , I'll pray with all my heart that it happens to a loved one of yours. So you can only see them suffer. And you can never feel the pain they go through. When they become depressed and shit like me , wanting so much to die , you'll be so willing to take their pain and stuff , but then a reality check will tell you , YOU CAN'T.

It's almost 3am , and I wish someone was here. Regretting what I said / done just now , doesn't seem to help. But it isn't getting off my mind. Wondering why I said those things without actually thinking. Was it because I was actually more focused on playing billiard than thinking of what I should say ? I really don't know..

All I know is that I hope tomorrow will be better. When you wake up , you'll be sick no more , forgiven me and we'll have a happy day tomorrow. I guess , that's all I can hope and pray for at this point in time.

I'm sorry for everything I've done and said. But I still love you baby. You're my 1 and only one. I really do.

I have this sudden inevitable urge to blog although I haven't done so in the past week or so. It came to me last night when I couldn't get to bed. All the thoughts of sadness , worries and what not. It was only negative thoughts , negative thinking. EVERYTHING was negative. I really don't know what to do or say.

I really really do love you in my heart. But I know my actions seldom say so. But I swear it's you I love. It's only you. All my worries , fear and sadness. Will anyone kiss them away ? Will anyone just hold me close and tell me everything's gonna be alright ?

Cause I'm different. I need alot more tender loving care then other guys. Any other guys you'll meet . I'm quite certain of this. And what makes me even more different ? I'm handicapped. I can't walk properly and I neither can I bend my legs.

When people make fun of me , I just smile and laugh heartily . But do they know the hurt that's tearing me inside out ? I guess no one knows how it feels. Not till they've been through what I have.

I love you baby. I really do. Don't ask me why this post is so incoherent. It's just ... I don't know. I've so many things that I want to say out , but I don't know how to. I'm literally just typing everything that comes to my mind. So yeah....

Till then ,
Wyn

I haven't blogged for 1 month. Now , tell me. If you're me , with 2 broken legs and 1 broken hand after an accident. Walking with a limp and knee can't bend. This girl has promised to stay with me , and I'm giving my relationship more than my all.

But when reality sets in , why would someone stay with you knowing all your physical disablities ? Would this be another case of my low self-esteem ? I really don't know , and I wish to have some enlightenment . Now , will some stranger or anyone else tell me why ? And no. I do NOT want your answer baby. Cause I know what it's gonna be.

I wanna know facts. Because , I already am betting more then I have. And if I fall , it's gonna be hard. Oh. But I can't fall. Cause if I do , I'll have to amputate my legs. LAWL.

I haven't blogged for 1 month. Now , tell me. If you're me , with 2 broken legs and 1 broken hand after an accident. Walking with a limp and knee can't bend. This girl has promised to stay with me , and I'm giving my relationship more than my all.

But when reality sets in , why would someone stay with you knowing all your physical disablities ? Would this be another case of my low self-esteem ? I really don't know , and I wish to have some enlightenment . Now , will some stranger or anyone else tell me why ? And no. I do NOT want your answer baby. Cause I know what it's gonna be.

I wanna know facts. Because , I already am betting more then I have. And if I fall , it's gonna be hard. Oh. But I can't fall. Cause if I do , I'll have to amputate my legs. LAWL.

Yu Guo Tian Qing. And we're still as loving. HAHAHA. So you fuckers got no chance. =P

Try again next time. LOL..

Cause I still love you loads darling. :D